I wrote this in the Cellular Biology class. since it has no date, I can't tell precisely when I wrote it, but i think it was about 2-3 months ago.
We appear to cease to exist without our delusions.
It seems to be that we do not have anything of our own. our free will, our goals and aims, our values, and our actions are all questionably in the sense that they are things that we actually possess.
Entities such as genes and memes possess us, and they do so by making us believe that we possess them. Before I make any further statements, I shall point out that they are in no sense subjective. This itself leads me to the question of what subjectivity actually means, besides; i think the answer to the question, and the question of how consciousness arises is somehow linked to how the above-mentioned entities succeed at deluding us...
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Despite all I may want to declare, I think that my ideas are raw, and at their infancy. I have been thinking about this for some time, and this has been the reason why I have refrained from writing anything. Whenever I decide to write, it suddenly comes to my mind that I know so little, and have much to learn. And this in turn makes me feel that I know nothing at all; that all my knowledge is very questionable.
Yet this seems valuable. Realizing that you know so little prevents you from resorting to dogma, and pushes you towards trying to learn more, so you could forge ideas of your own, no matter how delusional the phrase "your own" might seem.
This is why I tend to like Socrates, as he thinks that the way to understanding is realizing you may not really know what you think you know, and thus you must question everything.